11th Jan 2012

When a loved one passes away, you face the pain of losing someone forever, because you know you will miss him. You will never have the chance to spend time with him; to hold his hand, listen to his voice,talk to him and feel his presence. And then you regret that you had not spend enough time with him when his around. 

It is a fixed rule that each and every human being born into this world must face such a suffering of losing him to death( unless he is either born without a conscious or he's maybe a tree log) 

Whenever I miss you. I mourn for you in silence. I thank you and fill my heart with your love and gratitude. I can't feel you externally but you still exist eternally within mine. The cassette of memories is still playing and playing, is the play over yet?

Thank you for the love you had given and the sacrifice you have made made. Perhaps your death is a sacrifice that makes me grow. 

I know that the deep down each and everyone of us issss   - the entire universe. You have left, but you've turned into something even more subtle and beautiful. I sense you in the wind that passed by, I see your shadows in a flowing river and I feel you beneath the earth and above the sky. You are blended with the universe aren't you? 

Substitute sadness with appreciation; pain with gratitude. You'll feel better. Maybe. I think.  

Memories

It was a very weird night. I dreamt running around my primary school being chased by people. I guess it's because I initially planned to visit my school this morning but decided to drop the idea because my buddies can't go.

Anyways, waking up early in the morning suddenly brought back lots of special memories in primary school.
Memories that are tragic yet beautiful for me.

 I wonder if you still remember the boy who wait for you by the gate every morning, oh wait, you didn't know that...

Life after 18 is like a rocket

Today, I dropped by one of my mentors' place to have a small chat and also to ask him for a small favor.
I felt that we had a pretty close and meaningful chat, a heart-to-heart talk for the very few times.
He told me
"Life is short, don't waste them.
Optimize your resource and time,
use them to the fullest so you won't regret as much as I do. "
 
Humans, yes a person is actually capable of doing many things. But just take a moment to think about this, how much buffering time do we waste every day between each chores we do. How can we use the extra buffering time between our daily activities to learn something new, practice something or do something meaningful?
 
He then told me that an uncle once told him that,

Life after eighteen is like a rocket,
Your life's goal is to fly and reach a destination,
Perhaps a star or planet far far away.
But bear in mind that every 5 years,
You've got to examine, steer and re-navigate your direction,
So that you won't stray away from the right path
or just purely there's a need to change your direction
because our goals, direction and meaning in life changes as we mature.

Interesting analogy, isn't it?